any out there? words of encouregement? what you ate during the recovery? what happned? are you fully recovered now?
I came home today from my job where my parents had to sit me down and have the final "talk" with me. the doctor called earlier that day and said that unless I gain some kind of weight I will have to go to the "feeding tube" and I will have to skip my junior ear in highschool next year for a special "ED school". He said I have to eat enriched carbs, or anything that can get my weight up. 10 lbs to be "healthy" again. I ate pancakes with homemade strawberry jam for lunch today and whipped cream. I wanted to cry after becuase I felt like a pig. I usually eat healthy, and my parents promised to buy healthy foods again and let me do sports and all the physychal activities AFTER this month or two when i reach a healthy weight. If I lose one more pound I will not go to school next year, or get a drivers licsense etc. I tried to eat 1800-2000 calories before, but I apperantly LOST weight.
I am trying and trying so far...but I feel like a terrible monster for eating this much. 3000 calories a day is turmoil for me. not only that but the "scary" foods help me. My mom says to just "enjoy" this summer and eat what I want and jus steadily gain weight, this means I can eat eve bad foods. And once I reach a healthy weight I will eat healthy again and organic and all that good stuff. But im just scared that if I "let go" I will become uber unhealthy. apperantly I need weight...I just need a push. any words of encouragement and what you ate to help me?
Ima t the point where i need to gain weight. And Im scared. Today I ate like I said, pancakes for lunch with homemade strawberry jam and whipped cream. then for dinner I had spaghetti with two large meat balls. while spaghetti. then my commander in cheif came home and gave me a bag of breadsticks and told me to eat some. I was mrortified. but I ate 3 little ceasers cheese bread. You dont know how "evil" that food is for me. I havent eaten it in such a long time I am so scared now. I know I sound pathetic but I really need to know-is it for the better FOR NOW.
any tips? stores? plans? anything? How many calories did you have to eat? Im at the point where my doctor says I "shouldnt count of worry about calories I should just eat!" this is increadibly hard for me. :( I want to cry after certain meals now. I just want to be a "healthy weight", get it over with and have control again. I have a dessert wating for me at the island in the kitchen. strawberry pudding ring cake. I am skeptical wheather I should eat it. Btw, my period has been gone for..well ever since march or so. What to do?
should I REALLY JUST "let go" for a month or two and eat enough and the pastries? How do I avoid going down the path of relapse or being too unhealthy?
Godbless you who answer. my email is ffinckleson@yahoo.com for more extended stories. ty 鈾?/div> Recovering anorexia stories?
you really need to eat. keep yourself healthy. i am not sure if you know this, but not eating can cause death.
eat the dessert, eat the pastries, eat whatever the heck you want. yes, it will be very hard for you at first (because you're so used to eating limited and healthy) but it's for your own good. you don't even need to eat all pastries, but some are enough. just make sure you are eating a LOT. even if you still eat a little bit of healthy food, the main thing is to make sure you are eating enough.
you should talk to your parents, your friends, your doctor, or maybe a counselor, about what you're feeling.
for one, it will help to get off your chest. and also, they can help make you healthy again.
send me an email/message if you want to talk! (:
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